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Yogeshwarji's long and
seemingly unending history of fasts continued for more than a decade. He was
enriched by various darshans of the Mother yet he remain discontent. He was
craving for the Mother's darshan accompanied by her nectarine speech. His
eternal yearning was for the realization of the Mother and conversation with
her at his will. He wanted the Mother's incessant unobtrusive darshan in
which he can feel the heavenly and celestial touch of the Divine Mother.
The Divine Mother or various
Siddhas used to direct him on how to perform fasts and at which place.
Sometime he was even directed not to observe fasts! His some of the fasts
were observed with intake of only water, while sometime with water on
alternate days and yet another time with only a cup of milk or coconut
water. The duration of the fasts were also uncertain as he would wait for
the achievement of Divine Mother's grace or a solution to his spiritual
dilemmas. Some of the fasts lasted for nine days, some other lasted for
thirty days and once it even continued for one hundred days!
Yogeshwarji continuously
received inner guidance on his spiritual journey. His faith remained
nonchalant even during the trying times. The time, date and place for the
complete grace of the Mother given during his experiences repeatedly came
out false but he never lost patience. He had unshakable faith in the
Mother's supreme powers. He first came to the Himalayas in 1941 and
thereafter strived for the grace of the God for almost two decades which in
itself was not a mean achievement.
How long could the omniscient,
omnipotent and all-pervaded Mother hide from such resolved, undeterred and
zealous soul? How long can the Mother, an ocean of love bear the stream of
tears flowing from her child? How long can the temple doors of the almighty
remain close for the earnest seeker? The golden dawn of his spiritual life
was about to occur. |
